Dear Darcie - One Years Old

In the morning you are going to be a whole year old and I simply can not believe it. 

This time, last year, was a very scary time. We had been at the hospital all day because the Midwife came to see me that morning and my blood pressure had gone sky high (even higher than it already was!). She sent me and Daddy straight up to the hospital so they could investigate. They did lots of tests and monitored you very closely, we got to listen to you all day long. I don't think I will ever forget the sound of your heart beat. After a very long day of tests they still couldn't understand the reason for my high blood pressure or why you were measuring 33 weeks instead of 38+5. So they sent me down for a scan to see what was happening. The highlight of the day was getting to see you again, even though it was very hard to make out as you had gotten so big since the last time we saw you. The lady scanning confirmed the reason my bump was so small... I had dangerously low waters! She estimated your weight as being 6lb too. So off we trotted back to the ward. 

When we got back the doctor looked over the results and wanted to to another internal examination to see if my waters had started leaking. But they hadn't! Which again caused more alarm bells. The doctor then told me it could be very likely that my placenta had started to fail and whilst you wasn't in immediate danger you couldn't be left longer than another day. So in the morning they planned to induce you. 

That night me and Daddy prepared for you arrival, getting the house ready and Lady settled. We went over my hospital bag about thirty times to make sure we had everything! Then we decided on an early night. We couldn't sleep. I was very nervous about being induced, especially with the added complications but more than anything we were very excited to meet you.

One year on you have grown into such a beautiful little girl who really has filled our lives with so much happiness. Tomorrow we are going to celebrate with all your friends and close family, I can't wait to see your face when you see all your guests!

I love you Darcie Irene Burgess, with all my heart.

Lots of Love Mummy xoxox